I have written two songs about September, one when I was 25 (September Again) and living in Provincetown and one when I was 40 and I had just completed singing 40 chants in 40 days leading up to my 40th birthday (Sweet September). I had returned home from a short stint of teaching music in the middle east and the Cape Cod September was absolutely breathtaking in every way.
Right now feels magical to me, especially because I am not a traditional student or teacher returning to the grind. As a freelance musician and small business owner it feels like a breath of fresh air, a moment in time suspended in between the rich abundance of summer and the quieting down of winter. I love it! Please join me this Friday night at Centerville Yoga & Wellness for a wonderful healing & chanting concert and get a taste of this joy. Or later in the month for the first time ever in HOUSTON at Nia Moves.
At age 25 I was still reflecting in my songs on the bliss of playing field hockey – one of my most favorite activities. By the time I got to 40, I was reflecting more on how the nature teaches us that nothing is permanent and like the earth we too have cycles of loss and growth. And they are necessary and best when embraced with joy.
Now at 44, I feel the incredible gift of living in New England and of watching the seasons shift year to year. The number 4 connects for me to the heart and that is where I am now. All Heart. This has been a process and not always easy. As someone who was very well-educated and valued intellectual rigor, it took time to allow those “this is right, this is wrong” thoughts to soften and feel my conciousness literally drop down from my head into my heart. When I am in my heart, everything feels easier. There is no need to prove or defend or argue. There is just, “what’s next?” “I wonder what that is?” “How may I serve?” Obviously this is an ongoing process, but at 44, I feel the most in my heart I have ever been – at least since I was 4. 😉
As I walk on into the 45th September of my life, I give incredible gratitude for every experience, every song, and every moment of challenge I have felt. I hope to see you at a show or at Sounding Still Wellness for a Monday night meditation (beginning again on Sept 14). Stay tuned for an exciting new VIDEO release of my title track WISE INNOCENCE on Sept 21. It is ALL HEART.
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