Another December and I’m coming home, not like I’ve ever done before……

I wrote this song in December of 2009 (I think) and didn’t record it until my record in 2015. Below is a little blurb I wrote about the song in 2014.

The song for me is timeless. Enjoy it here on Youtube.

May your December be filled with LIGHT – inside and out

Reflections on “Be The Light” by Alicia Mathewson (written in 2014)

Growing up on Cape Cod, lighthouses have always been significant. Not until after my mother passed in 2007 though, did I begin to understand how we, as human beings, can be lighthouses. My mother did it without thinking; it was her great gift. She would light herself up from inside and help guide others simply by being who she was.

As a child I was incredibly fortunate. Christmas was always joyful – full of good music, good food, presents and warm company for all to enjoy. My mother was most definitely the center  of this energy – that and our faith that came from generations of Irish Catholic women. I still have specific songs that when I hear them at the holidays, it’s like my mom is right next to me. One of those is Joan Baez’s “I wander as I wander.” What a gift that piece of music is to me and the connection it gives me to my memories as a child and of my mother. As a songwriter, this is my hope for the music I create – that, it too, become a connective energy between souls in meaningful and uplifting ways.

When we lose someone, especially someone as center as my mother was, the holidays can sometimes feel empty and painful. At the same time the rituals and passions we shared can comfort us – the decorations, music, connection with others. Even though it may feel painful or like “someone is missing”, we can always connect into our heart knowing that sometimes only when we allow ourselves to truly feel loss, can we also experience deep joy and happiness.

Now, over 7 years since my mom left the planet, I am finally becoming my own lighthouse at the holidays, truly lighting myself from within in service of all who may need guidance or inspiration. This process of creative awareness and becoming is my greatest passion and this time of year with all it’s natural darkness is a magical time to truly BE THE LIGHT. I wrote this song as a message to myself and it’ is my greatest happiness to share with you. May your heart and holiday be lit up from inside this year and may you serve others simply by being.

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Happy Happy December!

To celebrate my favorite time of year on Cape Cod, I have decided to create Sweet September: 12 Days of 12 Rebirth.

In this series I will be sharing a track from my recent Album 12 Rebirth, talking about its creation and also linking it to an earlier song of mine. Read more about why I am doing this at Day 1.

Day 9 Love Again and Highest Good

Day 9 has arrived and it also happens to be Sept. 9th.

Day 9 on 9/9. LOVE that alignment. What does the number 9 mean to you? For me, it has always meant completion. Something is completing for me, individually and collectively.

A completion doesn’t have to mean a dramatic end, it could be a very subtle internal shift. The great thing about life, consciousness and meaning is that we get to create it for ourselves. That’s right.

We are the creator of our own reality.

It’s amazing to me that on this day of completion, I am sharing two songs that are about love and how to remember love even in the face of loss or change or completion. Both of these songs were inspired by beautiful women that I loved. Both relationships changed and “ended” in the form they had been, however both these beings are forever in my heart and have forever changed me for the better.

In Love Again, I explore my whole experience with loss, not just romantic love but that early loss we may feel as children when we offer our heart in its purest form and someone else just doesn’t get it. Some of us are more sensitive than others and so this early experience can be marked deeply in our psyche even if the moment wasn’t really that big a deal in another’s reality.

And so, it really becomes our responsibility to love ourselves, acknowledge the truth of our experience and remember how to love again. Love bigger, love better, love with joy and risk even knowing that love can sometimes lead to loss.

In Highest Good, which I wrote in 2008 and recorded on Winds of Sinai, I was very inspired by the music of India Arie. (If you have never listened to her music, I recommend I Am Light)

A relationship that I thought was deeply spiritual and absolutely “meant to be” ended. The writing of this song was my practice of letting it go and allowing a bigger picture to be made known to me.

Since writing that song, my understanding of love and connection has matured greatly and I now truly believe that all relationships are reflections of our relationship with our self and that the end of any relationship is never a failure but rather an opportunity to go inside and reflect on who we are and what we are attracting into our lives.

I fly off to Ireland tonight to be at my spiritual home, Creacon Wellness Retreat and I am beyond grateful that I will be completing this 12 part essay series in that amazing vortex.

Thanks for tuning in and remember wherever you are, whatever you are experiencing, All is Well.

Nothing is here to hurt is.

Everything is here to awaken us to more of who we truly are.

To celebrate my favorite time of year on Cape Cod, I have decided to create Sweet September: 12 Days of 12 Rebirth.

In this series I will be sharing a track from my recent Album 12 Rebirth, talking about its creation and also linking it to an earlier song of mine. Read more about why I am doing this at Day 1.

Day 8 Moments of Bliss, Back Porch Drunk and Breath in Breath Out

Here I am again breaking the rules. I am breaking the rules I made up for myself. Pretty funny!

Track 8 of 12 Rebirth is Moments of Bliss and to help tell the story of this song, I want to reference two of my older songs instead of only one.

First, Breathe in Breath out. This song has become one of my most popular songs and is often used in yoga classes. it was recorded on my 2012: Isn’t it Amazing record and was also one of the songs that Vivienne Gerard used as a sound healing integration in her first book One Day: My Soul Journey in the Gaia Tribe.

It was this book that Vivienne sent me in June 2017 that first introduced her to me. We then ended up chatting and I gave my first concert in her living room on 11/11/17. That first meeting in person was like nothing I had ever experienced before. The vibration created when we were together transcended all categories of relationship. It was that pure joy and opening of my heart that led to the song Moments of Bliss and our new Patreon page Creative Play with Viv and Alicia.


I believe we are all capable of these new kinds of friendships and connections. When souls recognize each other beyond categories of human limitation so much expansion, service and fun can be created. Enjoy the vibration of this song and really let it sink in to every cell of your Being.

The other song I wanted to mention is called Back Porch Drunk. Besides being the favorite song of both my father and Viv’s husband – shout out to the men – it reminds me of the same joy I access in Moments of Bliss. I wrote Back Porch Drunk right at the beginning of a spiritual awakening I was having and just months before my mom passed away. I was so connected to Source, following trips to both Egypt and Ireland and it was an incredible time to be alive in my body. I love that I wrote and recorded this song and it forever marks that moment in my particular Soul/Human journey.

Happy Happy Sunday! Happy Happy Sweet September!

To celebrate my favorite time of year on Cape Cod, I have decided to create Sweet September: 12 Days of 12 Rebirth.

In this series I will be sharing a track from my recent Album 12 Rebirth, talking about its creation and also linking it to an earlier song of mine. Read more about why I am doing this at Day 1.

Day 7 Be Creative and Be The Light

Day 7 is all about Being. What is the difference between doing and being? Perhaps you have heard that witty quip, “We are human beings not human doings.” I have spent a lot of the last 15 years unlearning many patterns of mind, so that I might BE more and do less. This is an ongoing process and the writing of songs is a crucial part of my growth and healing.

In my creative process, I often write poems or channeled words that have no music. Sometimes I write in my journal. Sometimes I record directly into my phone.

“Be Creative” I wrote first and then recorded it as a spoken word, which led to some editing. I included it in some sound files that I shared with my producer just so she would have a sense of my overall vision for the project and I had no intention of including it as a track on 12 Rebirth.

Allison, my producer loved the track and actually wanted me to do more spoken word. It has surprised me how much people have responded to this this piece, letting me know it really moved or inspired them. I purposely placed it right in the middle of the experience of the album, as the journey through the songs shifts here and starts to deepen even further.

I do believe that it is creativity and my willingness to express it through music and writing that helps keep me happy, healthy, evolving and thriving.

Enjoy!

I wrote Be the Light in December of 2008. Wow that seems like a long time ago!

I had just left Brooklyn, NY after almost 12 years in the city and was staying on Cape Cod, curious about what was next. I did not record the song until 2015 and made it the title track of that album. I love playing it around the holidays in the sacred month of December and have a few fans that want to hear it no matter what month it is.

I am loving this process of sharing with you through these blogs. Whether you have been reading all of them or are just tuning into this one, I would love to hear any feedback you may have.

Do you have a favorite song from the ones I am sharing? Has it been fun hearing some of the back story to my process? Feel free to respond below.

Also, be sure to check out the Patreon Page. I will be uploading the full moon chant a week from today and it will be recorded at my spiritual home Creacon Wellness Retreat in Ireland.

To celebrate my favorite time of year on Cape Cod, I have decided to create Sweet September: 12 Days of 12 Rebirth.

In this series I will be sharing a track from my recent Album 12 Rebirth, talking about its creation and also linking it to an earlier song of mine. Read more about why I am doing this at Day 1.

Day 6 Resurrection and Now is My Time

Whew! Day 6 – Half way through. This process of writing each day has been so rich for me and also has required a lot of focus, love and discipline. It’s been fun and illuminating to revisit my process both as a songwriter and a recording artist/producer.

By the way, are you aware of Queen City Records and the vision I am birthing? 12 Rebirth was its first project and in October I will be in Nashville participating in a week-long workshop called “Empowering Women in Audio.” I am super excited to hang in Nashville for the first time (WHAT?) and develop my skills as a recording artist and producer.

On to the songs…….

I wrote Resurrection in July of 2018. It was actually more like a channeled rant/rap into my iphone at a moment when I was really struggling emotionally. I knew I had to make some big changes in my life and I wasn’t totally sure how I was going to do it or how it would end up. The energy of this song came through almost like a rallying cry from my soul. It was in the creation of this song that I recommitted again to being musical, being in my body and being the best that I could be. It would be almost 6 months before I really fleshed the song out fully and had the awesome experience of recording it with a great band.

The true joy of this song for me is that I finally made a track you can dance to. Wouldn’t a remix be fun? Enjoy!

I chose to partner this song with Now is My Time from my 2015 album Wise Innocence. It was written in June of 2014 after singing at a friend of mine’s summer solstice yoga retreat. I visited with my Aunt and Uncle Nina and Jason Bacon in New Haven VT, soaked in all that healing green and again wrote a song about emerging from darkness and depression into an energy of hope and possibility.

I am often inspired by nature and traveling and this song was a result of that trip in Vermont and a particular glorious stretch of driving along Rte 7 between Burlington and Middlebury, VT.

What I love about this song a few years later is that it feels timeless to me in the sense that we are always living in the now. And so, Now is ALWAYS our time.

Enjoy!

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To celebrate my favorite time of year on Cape Cod, I have decided to create Sweet September: 12 Days of 12 Rebirth.

In this series I will be sharing a track from my recent Album 12 Rebirth, talking about its creation and also linking it to an earlier song of mine. Read more about why I am doing this at Day 1.

Day 3 Harmony and Isn’t it Amazing?

Ahhhh, Day 3 – one of my favorite numbers. 3 is the number of manifestation and both of the songs I highlight in this post are about manifestation.

What does manifestation mean to you? I have been using this word now for over a decade and am sometimes mocked a little by my siblings when I do. You see, they are all very medically and scientifically trained, and so the word manifestation or at least the way I use it, conjures up an image of me living in a kind of magical thinking reality.

They may be right.

I have lived much of my life from a place of magical thinking. This has led me to both success and failure, both peace and anxiety, both love and fear. An amazing journey overall, if you ask me.

I am so grateful for my family of origin for the way they love me and hold this incredibly grounded, educated and “based in reason” energy for me. And there are huge parts of who I am that exist in a much more mystical and magical way.

Because of this, I choose to practice manifestation through my consciousness and actions and….the writing of my songs. It’s as much scientific as it is spiritual. I can’t explain it all here (that’s another blog), but there are many teachers and writers exploring these practices. One of the big ones right now that many are tuning into is Joe Dispenza. Much of what Joe writes about and practices is in alignment with the teachings I practice though Derek O’Neill – you know that guy I like to go hang out with in Ireland. I will be with him and a community at Creacon Wellness Retreat this month and I am beyond grateful.

Ok, back to the songs. Harmony is track 3 on my album 12 Rebirth and one of my favorite tracks (I might say that about every track). In order to play this track I use a capo on the first fret, bringing the home vibration to 528hz. It makes for a heart opening and healing experience while listening.

The inspiration for this song came from an Energy session I was blessed to have with Vivienne Gerard, the first time I visited her home in Cincinnati, OH. It was 11/11/17 and during that visit she also experienced the Rising Star Healing System through me for the first time. It was like a coming home for both of us and I will never forget the magic of that first reunion of our souls.

The first and second verses are inspired by our session and in the third verse I talk about playing the drum, inspired by the memory of this picture.

It’s only fitting that Isn’t it Amazing? be partnered with Harmony. It was January of 2012 and I began writing it when a friend of mine went into labor to have her first child. It was a powerful experience for me as the song came through and I chose it as the title track of my 2012 record. This was the album that Vivienne first heard me singing on and subsequently used in her book One Day: My Soul Journey in the Gaia Tribe.

I remember creating the songs for 2012 so vividly. I felt this urgency to make it, not unlike 12 Rebirth, like the creativity and vibration that was coming out was deeply important for my own healing and the healing of Earth (Gaia). When this kind of creation doesn’t lead to material or financial success right away, it is easy for us to think, “we must have been imagining that urge” or “my family is right, I am just a magical thinker who can’t afford her own house”.

Connecting with Viv exactly when I did, 5 years after I recorded Isn’t it Amazing?, helped me remember my Highest Path. It helped me remember, I AM ON A PATH- a unique and powerful journey and it is only my self-doubt and fear that gets in the way of full realization, embodiment and manifestation.

What a liberating thing to remember. Want more of the joy that is Viv and Alicia? Join us on Patreon.

And so here we are again today, remenbering to say YES!

Yes, It is amazing. All of it. Wherever you are. Whatever you are experiencing and however you are perceiving IT.

We can all be a part of creating the new HARMONY – inside and out.

That is my commitment going forward, Each action I take and thought I have is in service of creating more harmony in my own spirit, mind, body and in the spirit, mind, body of my family, community and planet.

Each of us can commit to this in our own way and it will look different for everyone. This is the great gift of Humanity, We are One and we don’t have to look like One.

meditate on that.

So much love to all of you, especially those that are heading back to school – teachers and students. Thanks for listening and following along on this journey with me.

Let me know if I can be of service to you in anyway though my offerings of energy healing.

To celebrate my favorite time of year on Cape Cod, I have decided to create Sweet September: 12 Days of 12 Rebirth.

In this series I will be sharing a track from my recent Album 12 Rebirth, talking about its creation and also linking it to an earlier song of mine. Read more about why I am doings this at Day 1.

Day 2 Six and Three

It’s only day 2 and I feel like I am already breaking the rules. I love breaking rules even when they are the rules that I made up as I way to give structure to my often wild and ever moving creative flow. I had intended to share a song from 12 Rebirth and from one of my other older records, but today I am sharing a song I never even officially recorded.

I woke up this morning listening to many many cars driving by on Rte 6A. I thought oh, it’s Labor Day, I bet a bunch of people are leaving the Cape. Even though this “end of summer” marker seems less and less real each year because so many are back to school much earlier, I still feel that Labor Day is a big marker of time and the end of a season.

This got me thinking about marking time and how one of the ways I mark time is through my songs. If you have seen me live over the last few months, you may have heard me talk about how each year at the anniversary of my mom’s death, I would write a song, as a way of marking that moment in my life, honoring her and honoring my journey with the grief and awareness that comes from losing a mother.

Me with 4 of the 6 nieces and nephews on Labor Day 2011
Me with 4 of the 6 nieces and nephews on Labor Day 2011

I tell a funny story about how some years, I skipped it completely or other years the song just wasn’t that good. Year Six finally made it on my recent album 12 Rebirth, which seems kind of perfect. It is the oldest song on the record and yet is a great honoring of my family and my 6 nieces and nephews. I have no children of my own and so my nieces and nephews are also how I mark time. I look at them and think, how did you become 22? Or right after you were born, I was living in Egypt and now you’re 10. Whoa!

As I was thinking of which old song to partner with Six, I got stuck until I remembered a song I wrote and recorded called Three. I never recorded it officially but I made a youtube video of it. It was Mother’s Day of 2010 and I was living in Egypt. I remember creating it in my little apartment in New Cairo in between teaching kids music. What a journey that was!

How do you mark time? Do you see value in marking time? Last night I watched Interstellar (again) and I was thrilled by how it raises so many questions about time and space and the power of science and love. If you haven’t seen it, I highly recommend it.

If you enjoy songs like Six and Three, consider joining me over at Creative Play with Viv and Alicia, a patreon page we just launched that helps support my creative process towards my next record and the larger vision of Gaia’s Love Festival.

Happy Monday. Happy Labor Day. Happy Day 2 of Sweet September.