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2012. It’s here. it feels good.

The past five years of my life have been incredibly awakening, challenging, expansive, ridiculous, regressive, fabulous, strange and familiar. and now here I am. and every message I receive from the Universe. is LET GO OF THE PAST. LET IT BE. TRUST.

so, how do we do that? It’s easy to read quotes, reference teachers, and even write songs (at least for me), but how do we truly look back for the last time and step forward with a new heart. And is that even possible? A part of me says it is, and yet I can feel how much I love to roll around in my past – hold on to it – feel it like I am still there, mine if for wisdom and creative inspiration. I mean come on, there’s some pretty cool stuff back there. like the 80’s. Michael Jackson’s Thriller. The rubix cube. Hanging with my cousin Elizabeth in Ahlignton Centa.

One of my favorite astrologers, Michael Lutin says that the planetary energy we are in right now is 1983. yikes! I was 12 going on 13. kind of a happening time for the little being I was. Last week I had a beautiful experience of stepping into my future with ease, joy and grace. I had the privlledge of sharing myself musically in service of a group chanting party right here on Cape Cod. It was one of those moments when you can feel the Divine Blueprint of your life clicking into alignment. Awesome and filled with Grace!

And so, after growing up here on Cape Cod in the 80’s, it was magical and almost surreal to drive up to a lakeside/woodside  home that had an energy of love and transformation and service to the Divine that I thought I needed to go to California or somewhere else to experience. It certainly didn’t exist on Cape Cod. And then, in the way the Universe loves to show you who you are, the host says to me, there is someone who is excited to see you. It was my 7th & 8th grade Science teacher. YES. 1983 baby. What a gift. And in that moment I remembered something he said, “You may have a job in the future that doesn’t even exist yet”. And I smiled thinking. “This is the job. This is the future and I am here”

And so, it is now and I am here. I am aware I have far more wisdom, willingness to serve, and intention to be in my Truest self than I ever have and yet, the truth is, sometimes I just feel like I’m 12. So, hey, maybe that’s what 2012 will feel like for a while. It’s not the end of the world, though some may experience that way.

I choose to LOVE. I choose to LOVE me – the 12 year old and the 40 year old. The Being that transcends all labels and ages and times and emotions. I choose to LOVE like I’ve never loved before and then laugh as everything unfolds in a brand new way.

If we are creating everything, what do you CHOOSE to create?

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Yesterday was a new moon. And no I am not talking about the teenage vampire movie.

What is a new moon and why should we care? Over the last five years or so I have become much more conscious of the cycles of the moon and how I might “tune in” to them as a way of being present in my own life and creating what I dream is possible.

I have always had big dreams. This is really not my issue. What I have struggled with is the practical application of day to day practices that help realize these dreams in a realistic, sustainable, and satisfying way. The moon cycle is helpful in this.

Each month there is a new moon that leads to a full moon about 2 weeks later. Many people believe that the new moon is a time to plant seeds or intentions. If you study most religions, both monotheistic and others, the moon – where it is, what month it is, and how big it is often determines sacred days of worship or celebration.

I got to experience this first hand when I was living in the middle east, as the official beginning of Ramadan does not happen until the sighting of the new moon.

Each month, now I set intentions on the new moon. They can be as simple and grounded as, “I am joining the gym” or as expansive as, “each time I sing, my heart awakens”. Sometimes I write these intentions down, sometimes I sing them. Sometimes I meditate on them. I don’t like rules, so I let myself be free with it. Then when the full moon comes, just about two weeks later, I can see, did I practice? what has been created? I am often amazed at how much has shifted just because I was conscious and had intentions. And often many surprising things happen, events or experiences I myself couldn’t have even thought of just two weeks before.

This is who we are: constantly creative beings. And for me, the moon is like a deep well of wisdom. A power center of well-being that acknowledges both our most human and most Divine qualities. Perhaps this is why, we have so many myths about the “dark creatures” coming out on the full moon. A “dark creature” is often a deeply passionate and creative creature and does not have to be perceived as “bad”. Not if we allow ourselves to see the truth of who she/he is, and how we honor her/him.

This moon cycle that started yesterday is particularly powerful for me, as it will culminate on the full moon on Dec. 10 while I am in one of my most sacred places – Creacon Prema Agni Lodge

offering a Live Devotional Concert. To be in Ireland, at Creacon and offering the devotion of my heart in song is a dream coming true and my practice with the moon is a part of how it was created. Following Dec. 10, the next new moon is on Christmas eve – how do you love that timing? And so we are in a truly sacred time and when we begin to become conscious, we realize every moment and every moon is sacred. 
To celebrate this sacred time, I will also be offering a Solstice Concert on Dec. 21 right here on Cape Cod at Cultural Center of Cape Cod 7-9pm. I hope you will join us.

so tune in. to the moon and to yourself and allow the deep creative energy within you to flow. flow in service of all you dream and flow in service of all we dream for our world.

And if you are looking for more specific info on the moons and cosmic astrology I can’t recommend more highly a new journal by Stephanie Azaria. It is a calendar and an awakening tool.

To stay up to date as to where I am singing and what I am doing please join us on Twitter or Facebook or visit my music page.

Hope to see you at soon share some songs.
love love love
Alicia

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I can’t believe it’s been almost 3 months since I have blogged. wow.

I have had many blog entries in my head, though none of them made it to the page. Here are the top ten titles that passed through this evolving mind:

1. Bhakti Fest rocked my world, you should go next year.
2. Sweet September (just wrote it as a song instead – LISTEN here)
3. The fall on Cape Cod is miraculous – do I really live here?
4. When am I going to make real money? (self-worth is everything)
5. Have I told you about Derek O’Neill yet? Go play with him in Ireland (or wherever he is.)
6. Seriously, wake up and love yourself. It helps
7. Being an Aunt is pure joy
8. I keep having the same relationships over and over again – YIKES!
9. I love living with my Dad. Who knew?
10. Laugh and everything is easier

And here we are now for “Why I Sing”. All ready to write the blog and then….

My Uncle Paul has a heart attack and suddenly leaves the planet. As some of you may know from experience, when someone you love dies, everything changes.

Your sister calls you to watch her kids and you say yes. Your cousin needs a ride from the airport and you are grateful to have a car and the time to do it. Hugs (and food) abound. Love and kindness is flowing and miraculously inside what many of us feel is a horrible experience, there is so much love and healing, you can’t help but smile amidst the tears and shock.

This is why I sing. Because when I sing – all is present – love, fear, anger, sadness, truth, beauty, pain & joy.

In singing I acknowledge that I am human and I am Divine. I am the instrument that practices, so that the LOVE that I am comes through me with more and more ease, grace, and truth.

I have not always been a “good singer”. In fact, I didn’t make my college acapella group because I didn’t have a “good ear”. I remember singing in a chorus in my late teens and someone saying, “Alicia your scooping voice is great but when you sing in a group you can’t do that. Stay on pitch.” Not surprisingly, I chose to sing solo most of my life. Rejection can be very painful for me. And so I often avoid it at all costs.

And let me tell you, there IS a great cost to avoiding rejection.

My need to be perfect and not be rejected has kept me from many experiences – both personally and professionally. That is over now. I choose to be me, be free, sing out, and not care how “good” that is. Now, because I’ve been singing my whole life, the choice to INTENTIONALLY sing and learn to chant devotionally has been incredibly awakening for me..

So, what’s the difference between singing and chanting? Many people will answer this in different ways, because everyone can only speak from their experience. For me, chanting and devotionally singing has been liberating. Because some of my motivation to sing and perform was coming from thoughts like: “Please love me”, “I am not enough” “see me!” “Recognize me!” I often unconsciously created suffering for myself and others as a result of singing (or choosing not to sing out of fear). Chanting allows me to sit back into a space of self-love and acceptance. And then my singing and chanting is in service of my own being and all beings. The practice of chanting exactly as I am, allows me to release old programs like, “I am not enough”. Instead I say, “I am the instrument through which this song comes. May it be peaceful and in service.”

In this practice of chanting and singing intentionally, I apply specific spiritual teachings I have learned, ones like: “I am not the doer”. And “I create my own reality” You know these two teachings? These two infuriatingly paradoxical teachings? When I sing and when I chant, I allow my consciousness to hold the truth of both these vibrations. Through my voice – which is also a vibration, I allow myself to shine in service of my well-being and the well-being of others.

Anyone can do this at any level. In fact, if you think you can’t sing or you don’t like your voice, to begin a chanting and/or singing practice will absolutely transform your life. Imagine releasing your self from the false notion that you can’t sing. Imagine hearing your own voice and loving it.

Be still. Listen to your voice. Love your voice. Share your voice and together we will support each other with kindness, courage, and laughter as we come into exactly who we are. Love. Here to Serve.

And so….

This is why I sing AND why I chant. It gives me courage and joy as I wake each day and face my own fears and the fears of our world. As I allow myself to see the truth in every moment, I breathe and chant and sing and listen.

Can you hear the song of love? YES.
Can you hear the song of joy? YES.
Can you hear the song of anger? YES
Can you hear the song of loss? YES

Can you feel how it’s all here to bring us back to our selves? YES.

So sing it. Whatever it is, sing it and let yourself be free.

As one of my new songs says “In every pain there is a pleasure, and in time you will see, every pleasure has its pain, be still now and be free”

Join us at Creacon in Ireland this December and Sing Your True Song – whatever that is.

And enjoy this special chant H’oponopono that I did during my 40 and Fabulous campaign

LOVE LOVE LOVE!

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I can’t believe there are only 8 days left. What an amazing journey!

The live show in NYC on Saturday night was such a gift and I am so grateful to Omar at The Alignment Center and all who came out to chant with me and share the love.

Please remember to make a donation if you haven’t yet. We have made a dent but have quite a way to go to get to our $40,000 goal. I know we can do it!! https://www.sq-foundation.org/donation/

Remember, you are supporting animals, children, & adults from all over the world to have clean water, food, education, shelter and basic necessities with a consciousness of love and awakening. What’s better than that?

Above is a picture of me chanting Om Nimah Shivaya at the Beautiful Anusara in the Apple Event that I was blessed to participate in while in NYC. so much love. so much yoga.

Next stop Bhakti Fest in September with all my SQ Wellness pals!! yahoo.

Be Still. Be Happy. EnJOY the lazy days of August!

love love love

Alicia

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Happy foggy Monday!

My interview about 40 and Fabulous! was aired yesterday here locally on Cape Cod. You can hear the podcast for the next week here:

http://www.wqrc.com/page.php?page_id=33500

CLick on SQ FOUNDATION.

hope to see you in NYC this Saturday!

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Sat August 13 7pm at The Alignment Center in NYC


40 and Fabulous! Live Devotional Concert
offered by Alicia Mathewson

It is with grace and gratitude that I announce we will be sharing the 40 and Fabulous campaign LIVE at the Alignment Center on Saturday night August 13 in NYC. It’s a full moon and we are going to have some chanting and musical fun. I started this campaign to inspire myself first and foremost. I have been a singer since the age of 3 and been sharing my music as a songwriter and composer for as along as I can remember. After meeting Derek O’Neill and joining SQ Wellness, my relationship to my voice, music, and singing couldn’t help but change. I became more and more interested with devotional singing and the practice of what some call kirtan or bhakti yoga. Over the last 18 days (I started on July 15) I have been offering a chant a day on-line on my youtube channel to celebrate being alive and being almost 40 (Aug 24 is the day). I hope to inspire others to share themselves however they dream and financially support SQ Foundation ($40 suggested).


We are in so much abundance and it is time to be who we are and love all, serve all – beginning with our own hearts and creative energy. So come on Saturday and join in the fun. If you have already donated to the Foundation, THANK YOU, it’s only $5 cash for you!
All others will be asked to offer $20 cash or write a check on the spot to SQ Foundation for $10-$400 and pay only an additional $5 in cash. Join me (with lots of friends) and let’s sing/chant our way into the full moon and a whole new world! Tune in directly at the SOUNDING STILL YOUTUBE CHANNEL or visit http://www.aliciamathewson.com.
LOVE LOVE LOVE!
For more info on SQ Foundation visit http://www.sq-foundation.org

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This one was so much fun!!

Only $1/day for 40 days. Please help us reach our goal!! DONATE

Learn more about the projects you are helping to support here: PROJECTS

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No I am not 40 yet. But it is approaching, exactly 38 days away as of now.

To celebrate this wonderful moment in my experience I have decided to sing 40 chants in 40 days. What is a chant and where I am getting these? These chants have become known to me through my practice of yoga and spiritual healing. Like those of us who grew up in American modern Christian, Jewish, (or other religious tradition), we may have certain chants or songs that resonate with us as an offering of devotion to God or some form of Divine moment in our lives. As I continue to explore the healing power of sound and music in my life, I am more and more aware of how the actual singing and conscious practice of chanting helps me to feel well, happy, balanced, and better able to be in service to others.

Because of this and in celebration of the abundant health and happiness that I am experiencing in my life right now, I am offering these 40 days to myself and all of you in hopes you will honor me by donating $40 to SQ Foundation, an organization that is very much aligned with my heart and all that I hold dear.

Why not raise some money before there is some kind of health or spiritual crisis? Why not say, hey, I’m 40 and Fabulous and I offer all that I have in service of others.

Please join me over these next 40 days. Tune in.

Celebrate the fabulousness of who you are, at whatever age and whatever place and acknowledge that you too have so much to share with the world. Once you tune into some chants you can donate directly on the SQ Website Donation Page. Be sure to put in the “in honor” text box “40 and fabulous” so we can keep track.

If 1000 people offer $1/day for 40 days, WE raise together $40,000. It’s that easy! We are the ones we have been waiting for!

Thank you for helping me feel 40 and Fabulous!

Tune in on YOUTUBE or FACEBOOK for regular updates throughout the 40 days

love love love!

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I have been thinking about this blog for about 10 days and am finally typing it now, as a client just serendipitously cancelled her session. I love it when the universe says: Now! Write the blog now!

Last week NY state legalized gay marriage and I must admit I have not been one on the front lines of that movement. I was at multiple GLBT rallies throughout my day and with the writing of my musical Love according to Luc became very involved in the GLBT movement within liberal Christian communities, but the whole marriage thing just seemed uninteresting to me. I used to even say things like, “Shouldn’t we be working on eradicating poverty vs. whether rich gay people can get married? What’s so great about marriage?”

So you can imagine my surprise as I found myself feeling truly emotional when hearing about the decision. It was like my whole little angry activist life from age 19 on flashed before my eyes and and I took a sigh of relief. I remember when a good friend referred to her partner as her wife, and I felt a little uncomfortable. “She can’t say that,” I thought, “that’s not right”. I had been out as a lesbian for almost 15 years and still this use of the word wife triggered some ingrained message in me that said a wife must have a husband. a wife can’t have a wife. This is how powerful our mental programming can be. And unless we become conscious of the lies we tell ourselves, and the “rules” we’ve collectively agreed upon, peace – inside and out – become difficult to nurture. I listened to Ani DIfranco all day to celebrate and it was a wonderful honoring of my younger self and all the amazing souls I walked and worked beside over the last 20 years. Well done you big queers!

Prior to this moment of integration, I attended a conference led by the National Empowerment Center to help my cousin Elizabeth Kenny perform her lauded theater piece SICK. This piece of theater is about Elizabeth’s own journey through misdiagnosis, medication, madness, and ultimate recovery, healing, and THRIVING. At this conference, Elizabeth and I accidentally became a part of what we started to describe as a grass-roots civil rights movement. I felt like I was in the 60’s again (even though I wasn’t really there the first time around), and people were coming together, speaking their truths and asking questions about how our current healthcare system (and the pharmaceutical companies) are not just neglecting people but actively disempowering and hurting people. I encourage you to check out Elizabeth’s play and learn more by taking a look at her reading list.

As someone who has experienced depression and anxiety in my own life, this experience was hugely awakening and empowered me to believe that what I am creating with Sounding Still Wellness is needed more than ever. Speaking of which if you haven’t yet joined me on Facebook please do by clicking here and clicking like: https://www.facebook.com/soundingstill

On a lighter and perhaps less intellectual note (Thank God!), I am doing a lot of singing and would love for you to come listen to me live. On July 1 and July 8 I am at Cape Cod Chat House in Dennis and on July 20 I will be singing at the Cotuit Center for the Arts. I am also about to launch a very exciting musical project online to help raise money for SQ Foundation. So Stay tuned!

enjoy the summer. love yourself. accept what is. be happy.

If it is the 60’s again, why not take the Beatles advice and LET IT BE!

love love love
Alicia

This Rose is right outside my house. Good growing Dad!