To celebrate my favorite time of year on Cape Cod, I have decided to create Sweet September: 12 Days of 12 Rebirth.
In this series I will be sharing a track from my recent Album 12 Rebirth, talking about its creation and also linking it to an earlier song of mine. Read more about why I am doings this at Day 1.
Day 2 Six and Three
It’s only day 2 and I feel like I am already breaking the rules. I love breaking rules even when they are the rules that I made up as I way to give structure to my often wild and ever moving creative flow. I had intended to share a song from 12 Rebirth and from one of my other older records, but today I am sharing a song I never even officially recorded.
I woke up this morning listening to many many cars driving by on Rte 6A. I thought oh, it’s Labor Day, I bet a bunch of people are leaving the Cape. Even though this “end of summer” marker seems less and less real each year because so many are back to school much earlier, I still feel that Labor Day is a big marker of time and the end of a season.
This got me thinking about marking time and how one of the ways I mark time is through my songs. If you have seen me live over the last few months, you may have heard me talk about how each year at the anniversary of my mom’s death, I would write a song, as a way of marking that moment in my life, honoring her and honoring my journey with the grief and awareness that comes from losing a mother.
I tell a funny story about how some years, I skipped it completely or other years the song just wasn’t that good. Year Six finally made it on my recent album 12 Rebirth, which seems kind of perfect. It is the oldest song on the record and yet is a great honoring of my family and my 6 nieces and nephews. I have no children of my own and so my nieces and nephews are also how I mark time. I look at them and think, how did you become 22? Or right after you were born, I was living in Egypt and now you’re 10. Whoa!
As I was thinking of which old song to partner with Six, I got stuck until I remembered a song I wrote and recorded called Three. I never recorded it officially but I made a youtube video of it. It was Mother’s Day of 2010 and I was living in Egypt. I remember creating it in my little apartment in New Cairo in between teaching kids music. What a journey that was!
How do you mark time? Do you see value in marking time? Last night I watched Interstellar (again) and I was thrilled by how it raises so many questions about time and space and the power of science and love. If you haven’t seen it, I highly recommend it.
To celebrate my favorite time of year on Cape Cod, I have decided to create Sweet September: 12 Days of 12 Rebirth.
In this series I will be sharing a track from my recent Album 12 Rebirth, talking about its creation and also linking it to an earlier song of mine.
Why am I doing this?
8 years ago it was August on Cape Cod and I was approaching my 40th birthday. I had arrived at a moment in life where I wanted to do something different or more specifically, I didn’t want to do anything anymore that didn’t feel in complete alignment with why I was here.
Over the last 8 years of living and making music on Cape Cod I have grown so much – as a person and as a musician. I have taught many many children and served many families. This was an incredible gift and one I carry with me always.
Now, I am ready to expand.
After releasing my 5th album 12 Rebirth, I am shifting gears again. I am allowing my passion for creating music, awakening, healing and education to expand and I am re-committing to developing my career as a recording artist/producer and sound healer.
This is leading to two new projects Sounds of Alicia and Queen City Records. Both of these are in the beginning stages of fully manifesting and yet I could not be more excited to be on the journey towards their full realization.
In the meantime, I am first and foremost a songwriter and singer and I could not be more proud of the creation of 12 Rebirth. And so, as a way of encouraging folks to tune into it, I am creating this series.
And now off to Day 1………
Day 1 A New Earth and Better Me
I first read Eckart Tolle’s book, A New Earth in December of 2008. That experience and the new year of 2009 inspired my song Better Me which was then recorded on my album 2012: Isn’t It Amazing?
The thing I love about this song is that no matter how many years I live, it always resonates. Often in my journey I have periods where all I want to do is lay on the couch and “check out” or rest. I have learned that this is a part of my process and I have developed great compassion towards myself and my need to do this. And, when I feel like I have been resting enough, a good song is all I need to get back up and create anew.
A New Earth on 12 Rebirth was born out of one of those “laying on the couch” times. I was still struggling with why I have these periods where I feel so inert and the more I thought about it and experienced it, the angrier I got. This anger fueled this song and yet it was my expressing of that anger that helped release it from my body in a productive way.
Some say depression is anger turned inward. In my experience, that resonates as true and I have come to realize that if depression or anger is present, it has a message for me and when I choose not to listen and act with wisdom, the anger or grief or depression becomes more overwhelming and destructive.
I wrote this song very quickly when I wasn’t feeling so good and then revisited it almost 6 months later and realized It was a great song and might speak to a lot of us right now as we are going through so much collective change as Americans and as human beings.
It was Better Me at a whole new level and with a lot more wisdom and humor. Not to mention a kick-ass band in the recording studio.
Many have told me, they have found this track healing and inspiring as they have moved through their own anger. Anger, like love is an energy. It does not need to be judged or shamed or denied. We only need bring our awareness to its presence and ask what it is here to show us.
Through our awareness, we can be with any energy and bring our love and compassion to it.
It was such a gift to record this record with a group of amazing musicians and Allison Leyton-Brown as pianist and producer. If you listen to both tracks, you can hear how much my sound has developed over the years.
Here’s to a whole new expansion in 2020!
Want to be on the inside and support me as I write towards a new record in 2020, join me over at my new Patreon page, created in collaboration with my good friend Viv. This record in 2020 is all about JOY and I can’t wait to share it – both the process and the final product.
I was reminded today by facebook of a campaign I did 8 years ago called 40 and Fabulous. I was on the verge of turning 40, having recently returned from a middle east/age crisis (that’s a whole other blog) and was regrouping on Cape Cod.
Cape Cod – what an amazingly blessed place to regroup.
In this practice and campaign I created, I filmed myself everyday for 40 days chanting a different chant and posted it on youtube. I asked people to donate to SQ Foundation if they resonated with the videos. My goal was $40,000. HAHA. I have always dreamed very big.
This experience was an extraordinary lesson for me in consciousness, desire and how energy works. I can see now, that my intentions were multi-fold.
Yes, I wanted to share myself and my gifts as a singer to help support a foundation I believed in.
Yes, I wanted some structure to help me birth this career as a spiritual singer that I knew was real, but had no idea how to create.
And YES, I wanted to be seen and known for who I was, even though my external life seemed like it was going nowhere.
When I didn’t get close to reaching my goal but received an email from SQ Foundation within the next couple months saying that they had a set a goal to reach $40,000 in support of their programs, I learned so much!
It was not about ME being the one to raise the money. It was about ME showing up in my gifts and planting the seed so that WE could all thrive and empower ourselves and each other. Thank God I was crazy enough to do that and give myself a truly healing and awakening experience.
The other thing that happened during that campaign was on day 8, after committing to doing this, I got a bad cold and lost parts of my voice. I RARELY lose my voice. So there I was, humbled, having to acknowledge that singing and chanting is never about how you sound, but about the intention and devotion with which you offer your vibration.
All healing is Self-healing.
Now, as I travel sharing my songs and leading people in chants (as if it was something I always did), I reference this personal experience often to illustrate how we may not ever know fully why we are urged to do things from within. We may feel that the inner guidance we receive or desires we become aware of are crazy and illogical and …..they may be.
However, I have learned, when I take actions from my inner guidance with the right motivation, amazing things can happen – for both me and the people who end up hearing or feeling me.
It is not always an easy path. It can be frustrating and confusing and lonely. However, here I am again at age 48, recommitting to this path. My path. Our path. A path of what I now call Self-Actualization or Living into my Destiny Path.
My only job now is to become uniquely me at the highest potential possible in any given moment. If I truly commit to this, that realization of my pure essence will be of the Highest Service to Humanity, of which I am a part and I will have fun along the way!
Some of you may have figured this out a long time ago. I often joke, I am on the remedial human path. I have always resonated with the spiritual path and for that I am beyond grateful. Now, I am excited and thrilled to walk into my human path of expressing my Spiritual Being at a whole new level.
Thank you for walking with me and sending me an encouraging smile/hug, note, or dollar every now and them. If you haven’t heard 12 Rebirth yet, I encourage you to tune in and watch the new promo video.
I cannot fully express in words what a gift it is to be a Creative Music Maker right now on this glorious planet. I guess I will have to just keep on writing songs and singing to share that joy!
I am writing from Cincinnati, having settled in here for about a week. After all the traveling, it has been nice to land. Preperations are under way for the first ever Gaia’s Love Festival and I am beyond grateful to be here offering my music and supporting the vision of my friend Vivienne Gerard, There are still some tickets left, so if you resonate with the energy, be sure to register HERE.
Before I got to Cincinnati, I completed my journey through Canada, came over the border at Detroit, had a brief stop in Ann Arbor before arriving in Cincy. So let’s rewind a little.
Last place I mentioned was Brittania Beach in Ottawa, Ontario. What a cool spot. I met some wonderful sound and yoga practitioners and they have invited me back to play at their Bhakti in the Woods Celebration – maybe August of 2020. That would be fun. Here is a picture of Rebecca’s apartment and all her Gongs. No matter where I travel, the Universal Energies always make sure I am give the opportunity to retune myself as much as I like. I am so grateful for the many Beings on this planet using Sound to awaken and balance themselves and others. What a gift to be one who creates Conscious Sound.
From Brittania Beach, I made my way to the Algonquin National Park, stayed at an air BnB in in Whitney, ON just at the edge of the east entrance to the park, hiked and swam my way through the park and then landed at my Friday Jim Grant’s home for a couple days. What a gift this time was. I joked I was going to write a blog called “How mosquitoes are enlightening me”, but will save that for another time.
For now here are some pics of the beautiful land I was blessed to experience. I sang the Algonquin Water Song often. You can hear it at the beginning of my song I am the Ocean. Or watch this extraordinary video of the Grandmothers. listen to the sound as you look at the pictures.
Being with Jim and Betz and fellow friends Ellen and her family was truly nourishing and inspiring. From fresh baked breads (check out The Oxtongue Baker), to ice cold micro brew on the dock, to beautiful deep conversations about why we are here and how best we can become our truest and most peaceful selves.
Thank you Jim and Betz and all at Chape Inn. I hope to be back soon.
From there I made my way to Toronto for a night. It was incredibly hot that day – remember that crazy heat wave that was everywhere, so I mostly walked around a lot drenched in sweat. I did have a wonderful conversation with a local bartender, originally from Hawaii, who wanted to buy me a shot because he was so enjoying our conversation. He told me our time together helped him feel much better about Americans. I am happy to serve. 😉
From there I drove through some beautiful farmland of Canada, spent a couple days in the Niagara-On-the-Lake area, mostly resting and staying cool. This place made me a little home sick for the Cape, I must admit. Around this time I was really longing for magical swim in Barnstable Harbor.
And then off into the absolutely sweltering heat of the tunnel from Windsor, ON to Detroit Michigan. What an experience!
There was a LOT of traffic and I was asked many many questions as I re-entered the US. I realized after the fact, that the nice man just couldn’t quiet understand why I was driving so much and travelling by myself as a woman. sigh.
He literally said to me, “Next time you should bring a friend.” I told him I had my music.
After that somewhat annoying journey through the tunnel and over the border, I arrived at a most magical air BnB in Ann Arbor Michigan. The funny thing is when I arrived there was no power in much of the city. Remember that crazy weather….
The good news was I had a grand piano just steps from where I was sleeping. What a treat! I even wrote a few tunes. I had forgotten how inspiring it was to write on a grand piano. so fun!
My final leg landed me in Cincinnati on Sunday night staying with my friend Tera for a few days, then another friend Alice in Northern Kentucky, and then eventually landing at Viv’s on Thursday. We all enjoyed a super fun house concert on Friday, celebrating the Galactic New Year and completing the celebrations of my new album 12 Rebirth.
While I was with Tera, we made a trip to see Serpent Mound. Very cool.
It has been wonderful reconnecting and hanging by the pool with Viv and her family, allowing myself to recharge and move a little slower after all that driving and traveling. And I had another wonderful experience with gongs, not soon after I arrived, again feeling the grace and gratitude for how healing sound is always present in my vicinity, kind of like Magic.
Now, I am enjoying the energy build to Saturday and performing at Gaia’s Love Festival. To learn more about this festival and how it evolved from Viv’s book One Day Gaia’s Gifts, visit her website.
While driving around Cincinnati and Northern Kentucky, there are many bridges. It seems no matter where I go, I end up on some highway and crossing some part of the river somewhere. This had me thinking about bridges this morning.
Right now, I feel like I am halfway across a bridge. I can still see where I came from – the known place I had been living in and being me, as well as the place I am going – a little less known and unclear. What is it like to be half way across a bridge? How do we trust we can keep going and not turn back towards what is familiar?
Imagine if the bridge wasn’t solid. Like in that scene from A Wrinkle in Time, where the staircase only appears when she takes a step into what looks like nothing.
This is where we are now. At least that’s what if feels like to me.
Tomorrow is a new moon and mercury goes direct.. Then we head into what is known as the Lion’s Gate energetically.
There have been many moments in which I half found myself throughout my human journey halfway across a bridge. The last time I felt this much excitement and unknown at the same time was the summer of 2009, before I moved to Egypt.
In past moments, I have not always had the courage to take the full leap into the unknown and see what happens. This time, however, I have never felt so ready or so joyful to keep walking step by step allowing the bridge – the LIGHT BRIDGE – to appear moment by moment.
Hi all – I have only been traveling since Wednesday and it feels like lifetimes – it has been so expansive and rich. I wanted to share a couple photos/videos and share some reflections.
House concert in Amherst – SO MUCH FUN! What a perfect way to kick off the 12 Rebirth tour. I sang through the whole record in a beautiful backyard to an audience that was listening deeply and receiving fully. true bliss! Thank you Sarah and Scott for hosting! Watch some LIVE footage on FB.
Lake Champlain in Vermont – I visited with a colleague and his husband and had a wonderful time, soaking in the nature and sharing stories that ranged from Wayne Dyer to Parker Palmer to Claire Zammit. This was no basic chit chat. We were going deep and eating yummy salmon as we did. As they say, Life is Good.
Quebec with my friend Maryse and community was extraordinary. I fell in love with the energy of Sherbrooke and the people who blessed me with their chanting. Maryse translating into French for me, which was a new and wonderful experience for me inviting me to speak less and sing more. Those of you who know me or have seen me live, realize this may have been challenging. ; )
The amazing thing is that the music translates powerfully no matter the language,. It is Vibration – a consciousness and my time in Quebec helped reflect this to me. What a gift. Asato Ma was particularly powerful and will be used to help begin the first ever Gaia’s Love Festival in Cincinnati Ohio on August 3.
Now – On Sunday morning – I am typing from a place called Brittania Beach in Ottawa. It’s a wonderful combination of on the Ottawa River beach cottage community with city vibe and international people. I walked down last night to the park saw some kiteboarding, had a beer and veggie burger at the local Baja burger place and smoked in the international culture. What a gift.
Today I journey further west into Ottawa and will explore the Algonquin Park. All along my time in Canada I feel deeply connected to nature and am beyond grateful. Thanks for listening and tuning in. Song of the day, as I honor the land of the Algonquin, I am the Ocean.
What an amazing time it has been since 12 Rebirth officially released on May 17, 2019. I am so grateful for all that are downloading and listening and sending me messages to say how it is resonating. It means a lot!!
Here is Track 11 Walk Your Way On Through from the Cape Cod CD release concert captured on someone’s phone.
Here is an interview I did with Bob Weiser at WOMR right after that concert, talking a little about the record and my upcoming time in Cincinnati.
Thank you to all who joined me at the show. It was truly special.
Tomorrow I am heading out for a month of travel away from Cape Cod to share the music, share connection and open myself to more love, more joy and more expansion.
I will be doing a house concert in Western Ma and then Kirtan outside Montreal (my first ever show where most everyone only speaks French). I will be sure to stick to AAAAAUUUUUMMMMM. 😉
After that I drive through Canada experiencing the Alogonquin Provincial Park (it’s an Algonquin Water Song that you hear at the beginning of I am the Ocean),
I will have short stops in Ann Arbor, MI and Toledo, OH and then land in Cincinnati for a couple weeks with my friend Vivienne and family. There is still space in the Cincinnati House Concert July 26 and at the first ever Gaia’s Love Festival on Aug 3, so please consider joining us.
I hope to blog here and post lots of pics and stories on Social Media, so be sure to join me on Instagram and Facebook.
You can also follow me on Spotify (and stream the whole album) and if you’re listening on Apple Music or Amazon, leave a review. It really helps in spreading the music to others.
It’s an extraordinary time to be alive and doing what I truly love.
Thank you for listening and supporting me on the journey.
I can’t believe it’s June 1st. Wow! The May 17 Official release concert in Brooklyn was so fun and it is so thrilling to have this new music out in the world and be hearing back from some of you about what you are liking and what is resonating. Have you heard the CD? Or received it in the mail? Send me a message and let me know how you are listening and what you are loving. Those little messages mean more than you think and help keep me going.
TONIGHT I will be enjoying a beautiful experience at the Harwich Cultural Center with a local group of Cape musicians backing me up. so so fun. Catie Flynn, who sang on the record will be in the house along with her band mates Aaron Mayo and Karl Hoyt. Rich Buck will be on drums which is such a treat.
There will be more to announce in the next couple weeks about dates in Canada and the midwest, but for now, I wanted to say THANK YOU and if you have not taken a moment to tune into 12 Rebirth, I encourage you to. It is available on Bandcamp, Spotify, Apple Music and Amazon (among other platforms.)